what if love can't take it over?

dame! i hate myself!
i hate myself for loving him!
what's going on?
i wonder.........................
suddenly, everything changed.......

i met a few guys, other guys.....................
then, the comparisons start....
yeah, he is a very good guy, he cares about me, he got a stable job.........
but what? why?
suddenly, i afraid............................
i afraid he loves me, i afraid he confess with me he loves me...............................
i like him, i love him, but only as soulmate..........................

maybe for what?
i don't know...............................

suddenly, my parents not allow me to go out with him.....................................
they want me to stay away from him.........................
why??
ok. i admit that..................he is not that rich.............................

my mum asked me to find a rich guy.......................................
but for me, true love is not about the money................................
so, i still love him................................


but , nowadays, i really worry about his health....................
he is not a real healthy guy.....................
so i really worry..............................
what's going on?
my love for him is fading...........................

i just not ready, i'm not really to fall in love and start any relationship....

ok, lucky he still didn't make any move.........................
i really scare to hurt him.......................................
i afraid if we start something, i'll hurt him if i dump him....................................

so, ya, we just friend.........................only soul mates..............................
i have to keep this friendship................................